Ice loop right around daybreak. It was colder at 23F. Sleep was pathetic last night. Almost just went out for a run at 1 a.m. But then later in the early hours of the morning I did finally doze off. Woke up today and decided I needed to try and take control of the situation a little better. On some ends there's nothing I can do but on others maybe I can try and shift gears or something. Anything might help at this point. First thing was to try and have a better week running. Last week seemed labored almost everytime I got out and I basically hated even running... not even sure why. Because in the last two months that's been one of the only things that's kept me from checking into a mental hospital.
Anyways this week I'm going to try really hard to be more positive. Hopefullly run better. No hip issues and just pound out some miles.
Sorry if your reading my blog and thinking "this guy is a freak". But this blog has been the only real journal I've ever kept. So I'm sure things sound jacked up on the outside and that I may be fishing for comments or something. But that's not the case. I apologies for anyone whos been turned off. It's just my blog... my journal. And eventually I'll be able to come back to it and read through things... hopefully by then I'll laugh at things. I've always been somewhat of a happy, positive person and in the last 6 months I've started to be really sad... maybe some kind of depression... I'm not sure. My issue. Not yours.
P.M. Middle B-hills extended through the Secret St. Had a little better day overall. Sun was out and was able to run in shorts and a T. That's worth a half smile maybe even like .84 or so of a smile.
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